I accidently slept until 1pm. I really didn't mean to sleep that late, but when it's morning and you sort of wake up all comfortable knowing you don't HAVE to be up for school, or for a doctor's appointment, or ect, you just kind of lay there. I knew my parents weren't home to wake me up at 9am and I had been dreaming the most amazing things. So, I fell back asleep. It wasn't until much much later I opened my eyes to see it was already 1pm.

I woke up and ate a breakfast of crackle cookies and a hard boiled egg. I didn't have time to eat something big. I had already wasted my whole morning. I checked my mail online, got ready to go and decided, 'maybe I should call my dad to check up and make sure it's okay if I leave.' And thats how it all started.

It was almost like a Travis Charleville conversation. One of those where you ask a question and all you get are these words thrown together that make no sense at all. And then when you try to figure out what the fuck hes talking about you both just end up really pissed off. There's no need for games. When I get older I am surrounding myself by people who are straight-forward and say what they mean. No one else. No fucking turns and twists. No manipulating 'try to crack THIS code' kind of people. Yes or no. And anyone who wants to come around and be all Travis like, I'll take by the balls and throw them to Rhode Island.

So to skip all the nasty dramatic details, he told me I go go wherever as long as I stayed in the Imperial/Richardson Rd. area.

I did just that.

Got home. I went to my room for like 10 minutes. Came back in... and He is now laying on the couch sleeping. SLEEPING. Its such a good thing he didn't let me go out for very long. I wouldn't want to hold him back on his SLEEP. Fucking dick.

Now that I just got that out, I think I'll try to write about something worth reading.

Uh...

And I think that's why I never write in these things to begin with.

hladkfahdjfblasjkdsagf. Here's a survey...

g e n e r a l.
1) Use band names/singers to spell your name:

Look at what you've done-  Jet
Alkaline Trio
Unwritten Law - Cailin
Run - Snow Patrol
A slow descent - Staylight Sun

Zero 7 - In the waiting line
Iron and Wine - Such great heights
Early November
Gary Jules - Mad world
Let Go - Frou Frou
Ever so sweet - Early November
Rocket Summer,  the


2) Have you ever had a song written about you? nope.

3) What song makes you cry?  Taking Back Sunday -  New American Classic

4) What song makes you happy? Tim McGraw - BBQ Stain

5) What do you like to listen to before bed? Dashboard Confessional

a p p e a r a n c e.
HEIGHT: 5"6
HAIR COLOR: blonde? brown?
SKIN COLOR: nice and pale...
EYE COLOR: sometimes green sometimes blue
PIERCINGS: two in each ear
TATTOOS: none

r i g h t . n o w.
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: black.. adidas-wanna-be's 
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: Def Leppard - Pour Some Sugar on Me
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: there really isn't one
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: Pretty damn nice. Well, its all groggy but it's not cold.
HOW ARE YOU? I've been better

d o. y o u.
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: I'm always 5 minutes late for work. Always. 
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: haha I'm thinking no.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: I LOVE driving.

f a v o r i t e s.
TV SHOW: I have 6 channels so I don't watch tv much, but I like 'That 70's Show'
CONDITIONER: Don't care.
BOOK: Ella Enchanted
MAGAZINE: Whichever one is the most interesitng on Walgreens floor.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Go out. Anywhere. Anytime. Just away from home... although sleeping is great..
BAND, GROUP, SINGER, OR RAPPER: Right now, I'm not sure I could narrow it down to one.

h a v e . y o u.
BROKEN THE LAW: yes.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: no.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: Yes.
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: Yes.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: Of course.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: nope.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: more than I could count.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: umm no. not really. One time I went to an appt. with my mom and she just decided we'd skip school and go shopping for the rest of the day. Wow.... I forgot about that...
FALL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: Who hasn't?
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: no
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yes.

l o v e.
SEXUALITY: straight
CHILDREN: eh, I don't know.
BEEN IN LOVE?: no
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yes.
BEEN HURT?: Who hasn't?
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: February 13
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: no

r a n d o m.
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: Yep. Bob's Drive In.
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: I think Nelly - Sweat
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: text messages, getting mail, being with my good dear friends
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: I really want to barge into Breanna's house and copy her Alkaline Trio Cds, but I'm pretty sure I have no car...

w h e n / w h a t . w a s . t h e . l a s t.
TIME YOU CRIED?: Today
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: Can't remember.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: December 22
THING YOU PURCHASED: Garden State
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: I watched about 3 minutes of the soap opera "Passions" this morning. It was a good laugh.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events ....awesome movie.


Have a good one.

They drove off and I went to lunch.

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you. I'm sorry if I wasn't the friend you wanted me to be. I hope you're doing good and I hope that your Christmas is amazing. I'll love you always and I hope you'll remember I'm here if you ever need someone to cry with or someone to laugh with. You can always find me on the corner of Wampler and Ron de Le. :)

I'd like to dedicate this journal to a particular boy I know. I've come to realize just how lucky I am to know him. How lucky I am to be friends with him. He is just so very awesome. I want your baaaabieeees!

These past weeks have been stressful times 10. But I'm not going to talk about it since its all over now. Or I just don't care anymore. Senior Retreat was last week. It was nice. Very nice. It had it's ups and down, but that's life.

Stuffing tastes like dirty sweaty feet.

I want to take the piano up again. Start taking lessons? Do I have time? I don't know. But I'm definately going hardcore on the Christmas songs once Turkey day is over with. Christmas songs are fun. Just cause I know them so well... I think just because I had to play them every damn year.

Speaking of Thanksgiving, I CAN'T WAIT! Extra sleep and extra food. What could be better than that? The only thing is, my cousin Sheila probably won't be there with the family. And that REALLY sucks. But  nothing can be perfect. I haven't seen her in months... maybe I'll make her go out with me on Friday for lunch or something. Steak n Shake... Bacon. Chili. 'Peace Be With You' Crackers. Cheese fries. mmmmmmmmm... Orgasssdgism.... ghuh?

My car is in the shop. And let me just say... I THRIVE on going places. I shouldn't. But I do. Even work sometimes. Just anywhere that's not here. They took it in last Thursday while I was on retreat. I came back and my dad told me it would take a week or so to get it back. A WHOLE week! ...This is a conversation we had this evening:

Me: Dad, when will we get my car back?
Dad: Christmas vacation.
Me: No, seriously.
Dad: Christmas vacation.
Me: DAD! I'm not kidding. Have you talked to Gene? Did he say when it'd be ready?
Dad: Yeah. He said it would be ready around the 3rd week of December.
Me: Are you serious??! I hate it when you screw with me!!! You told me Friday it would be a week!?
Dad: Yes, I'm serious. They can't find the part that they need. They have to make it themselves. It'll take time to make.
Me: Ooh. My god.
Dad: Why does it matter anyway?
Me: (so extrememly pissed off) I don't know, maybe because I wont HAVE A CAR TO DRIVE. And I won't be able to do anything because you don't ever let me use your car.
Dad: Cry about it.
Me: maybe I will. (a tear starts to form)

Pause. We Watch a commercial.

Dad: I don't know, Laura. Sometime this week I guess.

First I think, "What a dick." Then I wipe my eye and I think, "A tear. A mother fucking tear. What a pussy." I think if I was him and I had a pussy like that, I'd be a dick too...... hahahahahah...

"Pardon my French, but Cameron is so tight that if you stuck a lump of coal up his ass, in two weeks you'd have a diamond."



My dear lord. Did you just read all that? Get off that chair and go chase a squirrel.